Deep Breath!!!

I was this thin little bit close from losing it this morning.
But I decided to take a deep breath!!!
This whole deep breath thing helps some times but it is pretty frustrating.
When you want to let it out the way you feel but you just have to watch your words to avoid saying those things which can never be taken back.


My aunts house is becoming more and more unbearable.
I almost slapped my cousin last light.
That one has started growing sharp mouth.
Imagine, there is a 7years gap between me and that stupid thing oh!
My sister is one 1year older than her oh!

Its not her fault,
It is me who left my comfy home to come and squat in their house.
She has become excessively rude to every one.
She just like her elder ones feels free to talk anyone anyone.

I woke up this money to a dead phone and missing money from my wallet.
In that house we are not up to ten oh!
I usually wake up at the sound of my alarm at four.

I woke for six which is two hours behind and I was wondering what was wrong
only to realize that my alarm at not gone off all.
I was pretty much late to work.
Hopefully my boss was not around.

In this days of recession, someone is now stealing the little I have.
Imagine the frustration of waking up and having part of your money gone.
The person even pitied me and took half of the money.
The annoying part is they would all deny ever taking it.
No one ever admit to doing anything.
Except caught in the act.

I am thinking of moving out.
Moving back to my house is suicide missions as my house is far to town.
Moving t a friends, that one might even be worse.

With time I shall make a decision.

THAT TALK!!!!

I cannot believe I am listening to that talk;
The worst part is that it is coming from the last person on earth
I ever thought would discuss with me.
"My father"
My mother has done her best to stay off of it or not directly discussing it.

I am sensing some sort of conspiracy between those people;am sure my mum pushed it to him and the man too opened that his mouth and was asking.There are other unresolved issues, he should be discussing, but he would rather talk about this one,

Now I understand how Tigeress felt when she wrote her post And I Cried on the Train
He guy has refused to talk to me, like I really want to talk to him self!!!

The man was asking what my next plan was and me thinking the guy wanted to know how serious-minded I was, was reeling that, I intend getting a better job and go for my masters next-year oh. He was now telling me that, I should be thinking of masters in my husby's house or when engaged. Abeg what century does that man belong to; which kind of suggestion is that.

He goes on to say that now that I have a job, I should bring a man home and they would know that this is the one I want to marry.

Na so e easy!

He then tells me that his daughter who is almost 30 has never brought home a man, which one is my own with that one.
Is that why he want to marry me off. He wants to do Baba Iyawo.
Like he would even get that position self.

He even gave specifications:
I must marry a Muslim, like I intend to bring home a Hindustan home.
I do not necessarily have to like him at first, we can get to know each other, it is the guys character that matters.

I told him, that I don't have any one I am dating right now and the man says I must find one oh!
I don't know if i am supposed to carry ready for marriage on my head.

My aunt is even the worst, that particularly accused me off going out with a distant cousins half brother, telling me she heard and all.
I no blame that one, she has been trying to marry off her 28 year old daughter for some time now.

My mother is also now hostile on the issue, telling me all my friends are getting married and am doing jangan.I am happy for all my friends but for one thing I do not envy them at all.
The woman is even down with me bringing home a man from any religion, so far he is not a traditionalist.

I don't know what is wrong with this old folks,
They just do not understand that we have our life planned and
I particularly refuse to be forced into marrying anytime soon.
I shall marry at my own time and to man who I shall not be afraid to lose my self to.

Someday Growing Up Will Come Easier

Deep inside are woman's hills about to
come up
To see the sky
To see the sun and moon
And the tiny stars in the black of a man's
hand

Sometimes in the morning
I'll look across myself
See hills and valleys forming
Think of rivers underground.
Outside me
I am blooming
Inside I am dry

If only I could understand
The reason for my crying
If only I could stop this fear
Of dreaming that I'm dying.


culled from The Secret Diary of Laura Palmer.

Currently reading the book and loving it, she is a mirror to my inner self

UNHAPPY BIRDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Phew!!!!

Spent the weekend attending parties, Omo no be small thing oh.
I have been told to make my weekend fun, parties, particularly weddings was top of the list.
So I decided to attend this one, the bride is some chick I met a while ago. We were not friends per se, but one of my friends is close to her and he said we should go.

The exchange of vow was in a garden over looking the sea.
No church, every thing took place in the garden.
The atmosphere was sooooooooo lovely.

I think am sooooooo gunning for a garden wedding.

The Husby is one omo jaiye-jaiye;
It was written all his face, I need no sooth-Sayer to tell me that.
Confirmation was later given by those who knew him.

The Bride had this I could have done better look on her face...
She was all smile during the ceremony...But on a closer look, she looked sad. So unhappy, Like this is the only opportunity I had to tie the knot and become a Mrs.

The couple were still at the reception way after most guest had gone...
No be Couple dey first leave venue,
They had this I am dreading the night together.
maybe the effect of having lived together for more almost or is it more than 2 years
But I hear say the chick no gree do anything with the guy

I no just understand for the couple...
Husby was busy carrying drinks for his friends,
wify siddon with dey look with forced smile on her face.

I just hope the wedding last, because, for what ever reason, they just did not act like people who were really that in to each other anymore.

Maybe am just imagining things, but I always know that I am Happy and I really want this look

EUREKA!!!!!!!!

Life for me was a bitch

It has been a bunch of waves for me
I have searched high and low and found nothing,
Tried all I can and end up loosing,
Been everything ......and still be nothing,
It took me a long while to get out of the murky hole of nothingness


But one day i finally find that one thing, I have searched for,
I finally found gold at the end of the cloud
and the silver lining at the bottom of the mine field
and I had my EUREKA moment.

It was definitely worth it the wait.

Wetin dey Happen

Okay the wind of change is blowing real fast and
I guess have been caught on awared.
Saw Soldiers on the Marina end of the Eko brigde this morning and
I got to me that this whole Militant issue is getting serious more and more.
I do not even read the papers which lies around in my office any more
not to talk of watching TV.
Abeg, make them no carry their war reach lagos oh!

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Now to my gist.

My mum is back in town and am so happy

I have had to compulsorily move over to my aunts since I started this job of mine.
Okay, my mum does not the job and most of all she does not like the fact that I have to move.

The thing is living with my aunt come attached with a lot of shit.

I mean a lot of shit!!!!

You can be accused of anything,

I mean anything; those cousins of mine sure can lie.

Except caught in the act, they would never say the truth.

I really respect them on that one.

Even give them award self.

My aunt has always been the comfortable one,

The one every one goes to meet.

Don’t know, what is happening in their office, but I think there has been a change in structuring,

So she does not make money again as before

It’s not like we all really know how good the place is,

Because the woman has always been complaining,

For as long as I can remember, she has never made money in that place

Yet, she sees something to renovate in her house all the time.

She is the kind of person who only wants good things for herself and family only

And the rest of you come beg her

This gives her the opportunity to insult and wash one down.

The woman done lie so te, every one don tire.

There is never money, and now that she is actually telling the truth,

no one belives.

The situations has gone so bad or

rather the woman wants those of us staying with her to know that things have changed.

No more everyday cooking.

The worst was on Tuesday, when we had to eat Okro soup,

No meat, no menden-mende.

Okro soup in my aunts was always a delicacy.

Eating meat with it self is Ojukokoro as there is already enough in it.

The Okro was tasteless and you had to really look for the tiny fish inside.

I hope and pray that it does not pass this level oh.

Wetin we go dey chop then.

Maybe she is even using style to tell those of us wey get house to dey find our level.

Anyways time will tell.

WTF

WTF
He did not just hang up on me,
He was mumbling some things I could not hear.
Network has been really crazy lately
But this one no be network problem,
except i want to deceive myself!!!

This is the same guy who called me two days ago,
accusing me of dumping him after i slept with him.
Okay rewind back to life,
just when i wanted to believe, he not like the rest of the pack.
We were actually playing this who calls first game or so i thought,
I actually don't know the reason why i decided to call him today.

He took me to that place and left me hanging.
He gave me that thing i have always longed for.
I no blame am, na my fault.
Will give you the gist of he and me later
Anyways no regrets because I enjoyed every bit of our acquittance....